Our Story

Shared joy is a double joy; shared sorrow is half a sorrow. 
~Swedish Proverb
Our relationship was started from the relation of a stranger person to friend and finally to a couple. I pretty sure that you and I won't forget how do we met and knew each other. It was in the 1st day of recruitment day of S**E. We met there and we were in the same group. At that moment, I really doesn't even saw your existence around and doesn't even giving concern to know who are you. Cause you are too silent, the only I heard u speak out was you introduce yourself as I didn't see probably how do you look like. That's funny. I'm gonna to talk with you on the 1st day that all the group were given a task to do and going to present a 30 min after that. So we were all brainstorming of what do we going to present and who are going to present? Then, finally our group was called and all of the members have to be in front and I was started asked him, "what we are going to do? we just standing here?" "I have no idea too", he replied. So all of the members that did not involving in presenting, so all are standing behind there and listened to our 2 members who are present it. Next, the other funny thing during the recruitment day was during the rest time that we were given time to have our "lunch" at around 11am if not mistaken. So, my friend and I were went out to take for our lunch box that being prepared by the staff to all members. After that, we were tried to find a place to have our "lunch", and suddenly we saw a person that looking deeply to his "Nasi Lemak" on the box. So we were started thinking "does he an international student that cannot eat spicy?" Suddenly he spoke out and asking, "does it spicy?" I said No, if u used to be". "I do not used to be eating spicy food at this early time", he replied. Then we found him that he was local. LOL! After that, we were proceeded to the next activity, which that we had to go to the ODEC. then, we were ordered to be in a previous group. We were all given a task/ game that used a black cloth to close our eyes and next we have to holding a person in front of u and same goes to all. Our leader started to help the members to lining up in a long que. Without realizing, in front of me, it was HIM. My leader was told me in front of you was a guy so hold him and may touch anyway you want to. I laughed. During the game, I was badly attacked and pulling out from the line and not to listen other s unless the leader. But unfortunately.. After that, I was brought back to the origin line, then my leader asked me better to hug him. Then, I think for awhile then i decided to do it, then suddenly  a hand of in front of me was touching me. I was totally shocked and thinking what does he doing? Then, the game was started again too, another time I was being attacked again but not as easy as 1st time and I hold as tight as I can so that I will not be out again of my line. But the bad and funny thing was I pulling his shirt badly, luckily there was no 'plakk' sound, which shows the sound of the shirt was broken. Haha. Finally, I was being out my team again and being brought back again for the next time and again he touched me. I really have no idea what does he doing??
The 2nd day of recruitment, we were continue with our presentation day, and all members were asked to seat in a group. I was sitting beside him cause there was the only place.  At the 1st two days, I was really had a extremely good impression to him as he was too soft of doing things.Haha. But when he was wearing formal attire it showed a different image .After recruitment day, we were not saw each other anymore.

                                                                                                                            To be continue......

Amigo

A loyal friend laughs at your jokes when they're not so good, and sympathizes with your problems when they're not so bad.  ~Arnold H. Glasgow

Why all the friends surrounding are treating me like that? Its so fake some of the time, hurting me as they want to. Why in this huge world there are really hard to find a real friend that really treat u as like sister. It have but just a short moment. No matter how good you treat them it seems like you cannot getting the same as you sacrifice/gave out/done for them. It is really exhausted to face all the time with them. When you treat them good they do think you that wanna get something like help or anything from them, if you are treating them bad sure there will be a lot of rumors about you and saying that you are not good. Being a human and good people and a friend is not easy.  The more we growing, the more complicated our life is.
I'm likely to have one true best friend than having a dozen of fake friends that doesn't cherish over your existence.A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be.  
~Douglas Pagels

  
 

          

HuMaN bEIng

HUMAN BEING ARE SUBJECTIVE WITH THEIR DIFFERENT PERCEPTION, ATTITUDE, EMOTION.....

Risking

By taking risk, is not a type of a game u can win always.  It is just like u put a large amount of money to invest in a new company, that you didn't even know when it can gaining the profit and when u will be suffer from lost.It is just like me. Taking risk actually is a type of burden and it will easily bring u to the tiredness but it can be reduce if my partner will understand my situation more and try to console or comfort me and support me and lend his hand when i need his help and be ready for me always. These are what do  i  need to support me and the better place for me being shade under u. Sometimes i tired being warn and advised by my parents that not allow me to be with HIM because of some causes. I still thinking 'WHY NOT'??!! EVERYONE is not perfect and no one can claims that they are perfectly enough. Why we are not giving a chance to being together and try to build our future. If we are not belong with each other then, which means that is our fate. But how if the God had tie us together as our fate?? At least let us have a try. I will be happy and less stress. Meanwhile this what I'm thinking only and may be also a wrong perception among other people. Everyone has their own perception on handling those problem. This is my perception and opinion. Yesterday i was shocked that he suddenly explaining about how we are going to meet our future. Although it is a not a very good but i feel it very touching of it. <3 
Besides that, I feel sorry too to my parents that I'm broke their promise and I just wan a try, I would like to proof that HE is not bad and the right one. I'm sorry to u all and I would said it if I'm success to proof it. No matter how you all are still are my parents and family.

Sad Moment

Today is good friday. What's a great day that i spent my day to 1Borneo to buy some stuff. That was the moment that i can relax myself. Why do my life is such messy. I already been at Sabah for 7 months but its really too early to have a partner but the unfortunately things, that he is not same as my religion. Once my parents, get to know about it they were straightly objecting me being with that side local people. But we are really falling to each other and we met in a different situation that everyone were also thinking it was so sweet but for me it's special and it is our great memories. During my 2012 birthday which is my 21st birthday and we were also spending our day together to celebrating it. We were went to Suria Sabah to watch movie and have our breakfast at Secret Receipe and with a slice of chocolate indulgence in the afternoon before we heading back. Its was great! Aww... His personality was quite quiet, kind, and gentlemen. It was my type actually and for me he quite sweet sometimes, he like to kiss my hand like treating me as a princess.. Aww.. Every time we are going out there would be some people looking of us, i think of the different of religion and the color of the skin. Beside that, in my Program activities' friends were kept asking me why do I chose him? Are you going to marry him? Are you sure? Why do they asked so? I felt why both of us like no one can have a positive thinking about us? Is it we are not actually being together or we cannot being together? Its also same as my parents thinking too. Objecting me being together with him and make me a tough choice to make of this problem. How do I can solve it? Why my parents have a such passive thinking and actually do not have to worry how people to say about us. But why I must to make such decision and are loving a person that we do really love is actually is wrong and there is no happy ending. Why? Why? Why my love story have so much of obstacles and no one was have a happy ending? Why do I just like a korean drama that the story about the main actor and actress were actually be together but because of the some obstacles and finally they have to separate. Do I have this such situation too? I'm always getting my mood down because of this. Sometimes I did got asking HIM for perception. Sometimes he did answer me, and not dare to tell him as much cause he will feel burden as me too. When this and those will be end.....