On friday, it was the first time that I went to shopping by myself. Its really damn bored and lonely at that moment and I hope some 'he' suddenly appeared in front of me. Haha. Dream on!!!
On that day, I thought that he still working at there but when I arrived at that floor he was gone and I don't know whether he still working there or??Felt lost and upset! I thought that day will be the happy day for me course long time didn't saw him wish that I can see him again. But it was NOT. Haiz.T.T
Sad and disappointed.
I never be like this before that I love someone like this and I'm wait him around 2 years and almost to 3 years. Aww...From the beginning, I also don't know how he was. I just know that he looked so cool because every time I saw him, he was alone and doing his homeworks. Owwww..This was the nice direction for me to look of his hardworking, cute and handsome look..><
So, without realizing I was always try to have a secret watch at him and sometimes he also found that I was looking at him. OH GOSH!haha
But sometimes, I found that he also did the same to me. Haha..Unbelievable..And sometimes I will thought he must not looking at me maybe the other girls behind me in the tuition class??I'm also not sure for that..
But on one day, It still fresh on my mind that, we were eye contact-ing for a few seconds on tuition center that we were ready to go back home but my friend had some problem with the question so I waited her. When he realize that, he felt shy and found his friend at the back seat. I still remember, remember. It was my first time this thing was happened on me. But how do he felt of me? Does the same or the opposite?? I knew it was not the right time for us to think this course we were going to sit for the important public examination.
After the examination was over, he was working on the complex, my friend and I saw him too. But he just like doesn't recognize me. Felt sad that time. When the examination's results was come out, he got the excellent results for it. I was not expected that he was the top student in his school. I'm felt happy and proud of his excellent results. My friends were joking and praise me that I have a good vision of fall in love to him..LOL!
But I really don't know, anyway I really felt happy of that.
Now, I still miss him a lot and I even try to forget about him. And maybe I know why he doesn't want to talk with me. LOL! Because of I'm sending a lot of message to him on facebook and I did this because every time I saw him online he also does not really even I wrote on his chat box. I really wish to chat with him but he does not want to. So I just sent him the wishes, saying hi message to his facebook inbox.But its still the same. OR he don't know who am I or he forget me? Or from the beginning I was wishful thinking only (一厢情愿) and maybe he already had a lovely girlfriend. "Love a people doesn't mean to get his person means you love him." “Want him to be happy I will wish him to be happy always."
