Happy

Today the weather was quite cold with the heavy rain since in the early morning. It's make me felt lazy and even more sleepy. LOL! Besides, today was the Prince William and Princess Catherine Middleton's royal wedding. It's amazing and fantastic..Princess Catherine's dress was beautiful..It's really wonderful and memorable fairy tales..Felt envy and happy with their marriagement...Happy always!^^

FELT HAPPY..

Depressed!

Today I am feel unhappy. I don't know why! I don't know how to express my feeling. I don't know what to do for the next. Many people complained that why I'm always talked or said in my low voice and nobody can heard me what I'm said! I felt very surprise because I didn't realized that, so what I should do? But some felt anger of my lower voice so it's make me felt sad! I really don't know and am I lack of confidence to talk with others so I lower my voice or I'm acting to be polite so I talked with lower voice? Why? Why?Why?Which is the main factors? Do I still under their shelter ?I still don't know how to independent? But I wish to learn from the mistakes or because I only staying at the house and lack of socialize with other peoples? Are these will be the reasons of why I became so passive? I scared?
When I'm small in the primary school i still remember how passive am I compared to now! Less talking with my friends and less participated in sports. But when I'm enroll in secondary school for my first year I can't even got a new friends in that new school cause all the students were came from the different school because this school was new and I just kept befriend with my friend which come from the same school with me. I can get new friends because my friends come to me and asked for my name and we started to become friend. This was the way I can get my friends. During my school period, all the activities held by the school or clubs I can't participate because of my mum does not allowed me to enter/participate. Actually I wished and hope to enter because everything can be learnt through this activities and maybe I can overcome my passive attitude. Due to my passive attitude i hard to get some new friends even now also.
During my high school period, form six studied, I try my best to get know of my new friends but I just can get to know but not the close like chatting all the time. We can only chat for some problem like school's homework and etc. But for my best friends they easily get new friends however they are from different schools. I think because of they do not passive like me doesn't like to talk much. Anyway, i still love my new friends, however not so close. I miss the time in my secondary and high school studied period with my friends. They all really funny. I become less passive but still hard to get new friends..haha..This should thanks to my best friend because they are very talkative person so they always like to joke with me. After the long period I also making the jokes with my friends and start to talk more with my "best friends" not all people but only them. LOL! THAT'S FUNNY!