离开

我要去读书了。从来，没离开过家那么远，那么久。
我习惯了在家和家人一起。
现在为了读书，我必须要去到沙巴。
要离开家，家人，一个人到外面。
那种感觉好好舍不得也很想念他们哦。。。
也习惯了在一个小小家里充满幸福快乐，每一天有笑的。
偶尔，晚上也会跟妹妹一起谈心，也便趁我们的习惯。
现在我要走了。
希望在三年里，我学会了独立，努力的读书。

World In Mess

還來不及去看的美景 已變成新聞裏的悲劇
還慶幸著沒生那種病 又出現更恐怖的細菌
昨天的海今天變桑田 什麼是明天
懷裏的你眼睛裏的我 再抱緊一點
好擔心世界這麼亂 各種恐懼不安 你要怎麼辦
如果沒我陪伴 你夠不夠勇敢
獨自迎戰那每一個天黑天亮
世界這麼亂 各種荒謬瘋狂 你別怕別慌
還有我在身旁 我們一起逃難
我躲進你心裏 你就躲進我臂彎

還沒搞懂的熱門話題 已沒有人再討論回應
才剛剛要信仰的真理 就被證明是一場騙局
一天一變一年一萬變 能永什麼遠
美好的你深愛你的我 快多愛一點
好擔心世界這麼亂 各種恐懼不安 你要怎麼辦
如果沒我陪伴 你夠不夠勇敢
獨自迎戰那每一個天黑天亮
世界這麼亂 各種荒謬瘋狂 你別怕別慌
還有我在身旁 我們一起逃難
轉載來自
我躲進你心裏 你就躲進我臂彎

好擔心世界這麼亂 各種恐懼不安 你要怎麼辦
如果沒我陪伴 你夠不夠勇敢
獨自迎戰那每一個天黑天亮
世界這麼亂 各種荒謬瘋狂 你別怕別慌
還有我在身旁 我們一起逃難
我躲進你心裏 你就躲進我臂彎

世界這麼亂 我們要更頑強
在愛裏取暖 心就不會變涼
世界怎麼亂 我和你共患難
找不到天堂 那就不去天堂

世界這麼亂 我們要更頑強
在愛裏取暖 心就不會變涼
世界怎麼亂 我和你共患難
找不到天堂 那就不去天堂

by sigma

A story about us

On friday, it was the first time that I went to shopping by myself. Its really damn bored and lonely at that moment and I hope some 'he' suddenly appeared in front of me. Haha. Dream on!!!
On that day, I thought that he still working at there but when I arrived at that floor he was gone and I don't know whether he still working there or??Felt lost and upset! I thought that day will be the happy day for me course long time didn't saw him wish that I can see him again. But it was NOT. Haiz.T.T 
Sad and disappointed.
I never be like this before that I love someone like this and I'm wait him around 2 years and almost to 3 years. Aww...From the beginning, I also don't know how he was. I just know that he looked so cool because every time I saw him, he was alone and doing his homeworks. Owwww..This was the nice direction for me to look of his hardworking, cute and handsome look..><
So, without realizing I was always try to have a secret watch at him and sometimes he also found that I was looking at him. OH GOSH!haha
But sometimes, I found that he also did the same to me. Haha..Unbelievable..And sometimes I will thought he must not looking at me maybe the other girls behind me in the tuition class??I'm also not sure for that..
But on one day, It still fresh on my mind that, we were eye contact-ing for a few seconds on tuition center that we were ready to go back home but my friend had some problem with the question so I waited her. When he realize that, he felt shy and found his friend at the back seat. I still remember, remember. It was my first time this thing was happened on me. But how do he felt of me? Does the same or the opposite?? I knew it was not the right time for us to think this course we were going to sit for the important public examination. 
After the examination was over, he was working on the complex, my friend and I saw him too. But he just like doesn't recognize me. Felt sad that time. When the examination's results was come out, he got the excellent results for it. I was not expected that he was the top student in his school. I'm felt happy and proud of his excellent results. My friends were joking and praise me that I have a good vision of fall in love to him..LOL!
But I really don't know, anyway I really felt happy of that. 
Now, I still miss him a lot and I even try to forget about him. And maybe I know why he doesn't want to talk with me. LOL! Because of I'm sending a lot of message to him on facebook and I did this because every time I saw him online he also does not really even I wrote on his chat box. I really wish to chat with him but he does not want to. So I just sent him the wishes, saying hi message to his facebook inbox.But its still the same. OR he don't know who am I or he forget me? Or from the beginning I was wishful thinking only (一厢情愿) and maybe he already had a lovely girlfriend. "Love a people doesn't mean to get his person means you love him." “Want him to be happy I will wish him to be happy always."

Pity

I thought that I can forget "him" but why he always appeared in my dream. Not first time but frequent. Oh my gosh! How I felt he also don't know. But I still think about him.Haiz....

I hate this feel!

Sad

Travel

The Places That I Wish to Visit

CHINA

 The Great Wall

 It across China covering over 4,000 miles (6,700km).

This construction occurred after 1368 during the Ming Dynasty, construction of the Great Wall began over 2,000 years ago.

The Forbidden City

The Forbidden City, or Palace Museum, sits at the center of Beijing, directly north of Tiananmen Square where the famous portrait of Mao Zedong hangs on the palatial crimson wall. It was the imperial seat for Ming and Qing dynasty emperors from 1420 until 1912 when the last emperor, Pu Yi, abdicated. It was listed as a UNESCO World Heritage Site in 1987.

JAPAN

The beautiful scene at Kyoto, Japan

 The Ghibli Museum

I wish to visit this place because of the movie that I had seen. I love the all the movies and the songs. 

Totoro

  

Kiki's Delivery

EGYPT

 

Egypt Pyramid

I would like to visit this place because of the it's history attract me and my curiousity of the its history. 

Ancient Egypt

 ENGLAND

England Housing Area

It's attract me to go there this is because of the peacefully of the country and make me feel safe and peace to stay. Besides, all the transportation are convenient and its also safe to walk from one place to another.

London Street

It's awesome. I;m love this place and the beautiful building attract me too.

KOREA

Korea Street

I wish to visit this country because of my curiousity and many leng zai are in this country and my idols too.

Haha

Korea Night Scene

Nice.

过去与现在

昨天，我看了我朋友的post我觉得他说得很对也很有意思。那个post给了我动力写这个。每个人都有不同的人生故事.

过去

在读书的时发生太多事情了，我无法把全部写完。

中一

我进了别的学校，因为这是新的学校，住比较近的一定要在这上学。
这学校还是男女学校来的。我小学是女校所以有点害怕和紧张。一开学时我都很怕因为不认识其他的朋友，我只能跟着我同校的唯一朋友也跟我同班的。好多个月后，才认识了2个新朋友，因为那是太多男孩来逗逗我啦也问我叫什么名字，我死都不跟他们说。后来有两个朋友走向我来问我叫什么名字。我也没有立刻回答他们我也能拿我的书本给他们看我的名字。这样我就认识了我这两个朋友。后来，
也做了好朋友至到现在了。

在我中一的成绩也ok。拿过第2名和第4名在大考。

中二

在中二也蛮开心的因为我进到A班来。在A班里我没那么怕了因为我还有2个同校朋友。进到A班来我能看到很多很勤劳读书的同学。他们真的很厉害呢！我在A班的成绩也很平均（average）。在中二也有几个男生跟我表白。但是
，我觉得我一开始我就选错了，

也回不去。

过去的就让它过去吧。他现在也蛮幸福的，祝福他吧！现在，我也过得很开心。

中三

今年，要考PMR了，我也很努力的在读书。但是，我读了很容易就忘了，
不知道他们怎么读的？

我只能死（memorize）而已。我的成绩也okay啦拿到5B。

中四

我的成绩因为符合进 science stream 的条件所以我能进到。

Science stream也满难读的因为我PMR的science拿C。

也很难明白science terms。考试的成绩不好到哪里去。真糟糕!! 

也蛮压力的！老师对我们比较严格。也常给校长骂我们不忍真！

中五

今年又要考SPM了真害怕。我的表现又一般而已。今年我有一个好朋友，Elvin。他教识了很多，也跟我们一起读书，温习。尤其是我的数学和additional mathematics。在这一年我的压力真的很大，有10课要怎么读了？我两个月前就开始读书了和做很多温习。我还记得有一天，
我在读历史时，我的压力很大又怕读不完，又读不进了。。我就开始哭了起来。。妈妈和姐姐给我下了一大跳。妈妈就开始安慰我,和姐姐立刻打电话回来了。

经过，这件事，我就开始慢慢的把书读完，就尽量吧！到了成绩去来，也不错啦！能过关！

这么快，5年就这么过了。。我的朋友，各自找自己想读的科目。
那我了就不用想那么多，

因为我姐姐已经帮我想好了要我读中六。

中六

一进到了学校看到很多人说过不读中六的都来了。
来至我们学校的也有好几个。很多人都在说，问为什么要读中六？

“听人说中六是全世界排第二最难考上的”！真的吗？要自己来尝试才知道的。其实，读什么都好都要靠自己的能力和努力的。有什么是不难的呢只要你肯付出!!

在这里，也不能全部靠老师，也要靠我们的努力去读。这里的老师很好。尤其是 my computer teachers, i love them most and my funny class form teacher and bm teacher..haha

Bm teacher easily get anger with our slow motions..

考试日期也靠近我就开始很害怕我考不上。如果真的呢我要怎么办？那两月前我又跟我朋友一起努力读书温习了。现在，我找到我的读书方式了。那就写short notes 然后就memorize and get understand to the facts and explain with my own words if not understand haha just follow the facts and memorize it..easy!!hoho

My favourite subject were ICT and business but due to my average results I hate it! Because for me, the real STPM’s questions for business was very tough although I had memorize the facts and the questions were quite confusing for me. After a few months, my results was come out. It really out of my expectation! Oh My God and Thank God too. My General Paper always was the worsen papers which majority of the examination's result was failed but now I can got A-. LOL!

I'm really happy with it! And I'm very satisfy with my results.
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时间过得这么快，连中六我都毕业了。

现在，我等着大学的信。然后呢，就要开始我的大学生活了。

也要开始懂得独立!!

很想快点读完到Master然后，就不用烦读书了。也能带爸妈去旅行。

我也能带他们去外国看看还有买车给他们坐。希望，能实现吧！加油!!

Happy

Today the weather was quite cold with the heavy rain since in the early morning. It's make me felt lazy and even more sleepy. LOL! Besides, today was the Prince William and Princess Catherine Middleton's royal wedding. It's amazing and fantastic..Princess Catherine's dress was beautiful..It's really wonderful and memorable fairy tales..Felt envy and happy with their marriagement...Happy always!^^

FELT HAPPY..

Depressed!

Today I am feel unhappy. I don't know why! I don't know how to express my feeling. I don't know what to do for the next. Many people complained that why I'm always talked or said in my low voice and nobody can heard me what I'm said! I felt very surprise because I didn't realized that, so what I should do? But some felt anger of my lower voice so it's make me felt sad! I really don't know and am I lack of confidence to talk with others so I lower my voice or I'm acting to be polite so I talked with lower voice? Why? Why?Why?Which is the main factors? Do I still under their shelter ?I still don't know how to independent? But I wish to learn from the mistakes or because I only staying at the house and lack of socialize with other peoples? Are these will be the reasons of why I became so passive? I scared?
When I'm small in the primary school i still remember how passive am I compared to now! Less talking with my friends and less participated in sports. But when I'm enroll in secondary school for my first year I can't even got a new friends in that new school cause all the students were came from the different school because this school was new and I just kept befriend with my friend which come from the same school with me. I can get new friends because my friends come to me and asked for my name and we started to become friend. This was the way I can get my friends. During my school period, all the activities held by the school or clubs I can't participate because of my mum does not allowed me to enter/participate. Actually I wished and hope to enter because everything can be learnt through this activities and maybe I can overcome my passive attitude. Due to my passive attitude i hard to get some new friends even now also.
During my high school period, form six studied, I try my best to get know of my new friends but I just can get to know but not the close like chatting all the time. We can only chat for some problem like school's homework and etc. But for my best friends they easily get new friends however they are from different schools. I think because of they do not passive like me doesn't like to talk much. Anyway, i still love my new friends, however not so close. I miss the time in my secondary and high school studied period with my friends. They all really funny. I become less passive but still hard to get new friends..haha..This should thanks to my best friend because they are very talkative person so they always like to joke with me. After the long period I also making the jokes with my friends and start to talk more with my "best friends" not all people but only them. LOL! THAT'S FUNNY!  

    

魔羯座

1月6日 脚 踏 实 地
宫位：魔羯座15-17
魔羯座二
本位的土象

在1月6日出生的人看来，生命就是脚踏实地、不停地探索，不管是形而上的或是现实的生活，他们的目的只是要向自己和别人证明每件事情的真相。而他们这种要找出生命意义的欲望更是多方面的展现，如哲学上的研究，甚至只是在找寻最好的一种生活的方式。

这天出生的人当中，即使是最具物质倾向的，通常也相信有神明或自然宇宙间的神灵。对他们而言，人类的存在固然是个奇迹，但仍不足以证明宇宙力量的神奇。在他们当中，信奉精神主义者会将人类肉眼所看不见的事物或经验，透奉献、爱、责任和牺牲，具体呈现出来。他们对于生活中较为灵异的部分具有相当大的兴趣，然而，这股兴趣并非建立于外在表象，而是比较哲学且诗意的确良。虽然有极端主观的倾向，他们还是能将自己奇特的想法清楚地达出来，使别人能够了解。因此，不管他们的职业是哪一种，他们经常都会扮演教师的角色。

这天出生的人非常勇敢，不怕面对危险。这是因为他们不但能够认清黑暗的力量，也能散发出天真和光明的力量，即使是铁石心肠也会为之软化，最恶劣的批评也终将消弭于无形。他们内有绝对人信念，即使走过最艰难的路途也坚定不摇。这种信念并非来自于个人的信心，而是一种信念，相信冥冥之中存在着超越自己的力量，会在某种程度上引导着每个人的命运。

1月6日出生的人，可能会面临几个问题。最明显的一个问题就是，他们会在很多地方看到自己的想法得到验证，便因此相信每个事件的发生都有其特别的意义。因此，他们可能会强烈地需要有人追随、崇拜他们，将他们视为生命之光而敬爱；而这正是他们面对的另一个问题。如此一来，便会有人觉得他们要求太多了。因为这些人喜欢活得轻松一点，也认为他人没必要来教自己如何生活，更不喜欢这种随时向别人宣扬证明自己，验证自己观察的人。

但是，不管怎么说，他们的反应真实、意见诚恳。或许有人会觉得他们并不实际，太渴求被别人需要；或许有些人会觉得他们很天真。不过，他们都是很稳定的个人，即使是在最善变的青年期也不会变来变去。然而，正因为他们拥有一颗赤子之心，对未知事物充满了好奇和敬畏，这种态度使得他们可以比那些批评者，看到更多的事情。事实上，在他们的生命旅途中，或许借由经验或对自己的研究，都能够找到最适合的路。
幸运数字和守护星

1 月6日出生的人，都受到数字6以及金星的影响。数字6使人很容易取得别人的同情和敬慕，也善于表达这两种情绪。受土星（魔羯座的主宰行星）的影响，使得这天出生的人忠心耿耿，并有偶像崇拜的倾向。土星、金星的双重作用，表示他们的感情生活极端不平常、复杂，而且充满了困境。对于受数字6主宰的人而言，“情”字，经常是他们生命里最重要的主题。
健康

1月6日出生的人必须注意他们崇拜某人或是自我牺牲的倾向。他们可能会为了照顾别人人的需求而忽视自己的健康，最后累垮了自己。甚至可能会因为全心崇拜某个人，而被坏了自己的健康。这天出生的人必须在健康上维持适度和平衡。建立稳定、实在的饮食习惯，同时要培养合适的运动模式，维持足够的睡眠，对他们的健康才有助益。
建议

切记，这是你自己的生命，别为他人而活，或依赖他们人而活。照顾自己，维持开放的心胸，与人分享。只服务值得你服务的人。
名 人

约翰克卜勒(Johannes Kepler)德国天文学家，也是16、17世纪的占星学家。他一生的心血都投注在行星轨道的研究上，为现代天文学奠定基础，并修正了哥白尼的行星理论，最著名的就是他的行星运动三大定律。

台湾企业家辜振甫，和信集团负责人，现为海基会董事长，曾两度代表台湾与大陆政府进行历史性的“汪辜会谈”。

德国考古学家及商人亨利谢里曼(Heinrich Schliemann)，证明了特洛伊城确实存在。

古斯塔夫多雷(Gustave Dore)法国画家，亦为知名的雕刻家、插画家。他为1861年版的但丁《地狱篇》所作的木刻画，是19世纪再度兴起研究但丁热潮的主因。此外，他总共为近1000本书绘制了插画，其中包括《唐吉诃德》、《失乐园》等。

黎巴嫩作家纪伯伦(Kalil Gibran)，特别擅长神秘题材，同时也是一位诗人，代表作是内容充满了智慧的散文诗《先知》 。

塔罗牌

大秘仪塔罗牌的第6张是“恋人”，这象征透过两性结合的“爱”，能使全人类团结在一起。牌面正立时，这张牌代表道德、美学以及肉体上更高层次的感情与渴望；不过倒立时，则代表欲求不满、多悉善感和迟疑不决。

静思语

每个人都可能有无限的力量。
优点

有远见、表达能力佳、艺术性。
缺点

容易误解、个性极端、脱离现实。

Gayu!

yesterday I went to shopping with my friends. It's quite happy and I saw him at the shopping complex working at the counter. Ya, I'm really felt happy that I saw him yesterday but another person was more happy than me. Yeah it is! I don't know why and I don't want to no too. I kept saying to myself he was not the best and many guy was better than him. But when I saw him nothing could be control. This is maybe my disadvantage. I saw my friend was quite happy when saw him and keeping saying and taking something about him. It's look very thrilling to him. Ya, he was a clever guy n everything was okay n quite cute but after i saw the korean drama its telling about the guy dialogue “I hate the stupid and cheeky girl"...OHhhhh...

I'm scare its happen on me! I'm scare to say something or anything to him even though MSN or FB chatting, like nothing that I want to say. Is Im not really very love him? Sure I can put it down. Not long I have to start my Uni life. Hope it is better and everything goes 'legato'. Hope.........Everything will be okay..gamsa

My current situation now!

After my results came out and now I have to wait for the University enroll letter...GOSH! It's damn mundane for staying at home. My piano exam is coming soon (scare) ><.. Then I also need to prepare for my MUET exam..(scare again)..Hope that I can get a good results..

Many of them always asking me for the same question that what does I do now? N I always also keep repeating for the same answer that I staying at home (measuring my whole house)...LOL!

Majority of my friends are getting and doing their jobs. I wish too but i have a lot of works to do n my sis are not allow me to do so. I hope to earn my own money..So hope that i quickly can finish my studies for 4 n a half years with my master..Hope all this choices can bring my future life better n guarantee my future too..Besides that, i wish that I will not lost to other people n can compete with them. Hope this will not disappointed my family members that always be my side n supporting me always..I will be appreciating what does I have before, now and future..

LOVE U ALL!

As a human being should avoid being greedy.Greed and jealousy go together. Hence to avoid being jealous one should overcome greed.

Capricorn 2011

2011年里，单身的山羊座爱情仍然停滞不前，这不是你本身不好的问题，而是你不懂得如何在人前展现出你的优点，再者，你亦可能根本没察觉到本身有什么优点存在，因此建议你不妨多与一些身边的熟朋友交谈，他们就像一面镜子，会把你的优点映照的一览无遗。已婚或恋爱中的山羊座，今年是时候思考一下如何运用你已有的资源把生活变的更好，为伴侣带来更多的幸福，虽然这样做，你在财政方面便得更小心的计划运用，然而这对你来说，心里会感到是值得的。

事业∕学业：Six of Wands

山羊座不管是事业或学业，今年都是得心应手的一年。虽然你要处理的东西实在不少，但你总是能在众多东西里挑选到适合的方式去处理，而且出来效果或成绩，都是理想的，所以今年如有什么计划，你不妨放胆一试，要对自己的能力有信心。

财运：The Wheel of Fortune

财运方面，今年山羊座的朋友会有不少收入的机会，然而前提是你必须扩大社交圈子，多参予一些活动，当中会有人提供你赚取额外金钱的机会，例如短期的工作、一些合作性的投资，或是买卖股票等建议，而且多与不同的人接触，对你现在的工作亦有所彼益。所以你今年如果减少宅在家里，你的钱包反而有机会变的丰满。

最好运的时间：5月1日至5月10日 幸运色：粉红色

My results

Today i finally got my results..haha..i'm vy satisfied with my results however its ok..but it is enough for me..haha

On that night when i online n i wish to know his results n i tried to visit his profile. I found that his fren said that he got an excellent results. I felt vy happy to know that too. I also had congratz for his excellent results. He also got reply me..haha..this is the first time he replied me. I feel happy. I thought he replied my msg because he felt excited of getting excellent results in STPM. Today (22/2/11) the china press newspaper i saw him with his friends, which they formed a study group to study and discussed. Im really proud of him.

OH GOD!!

Monday (21/2/11) the results is coming out..damn nervous of it. STPM's results so fast coming out. Scare tp see my results. Hope i can get a better results. May god bless me all the time.

Genting Trips

Today i just came back from Genting Highlands and felt so tired. I knew a new friend, ah chu aka ah yan. She was so friendly and kind and today we went out to the outdoor theme park and played twice for each games. I love the roller coaster with the 360 degree turn,yeah i love it. Moreover, i won a cute little goat bear today. Wow, it's my lucky day n i almost could win for the big bear but the coin was just 'almost' inside the color print.Yesterday was the chinese valentine's day n we went to the outdoor theme park to watch the fireworks. I felt that the fireworks were wasted because of excessive haze on that night n it became blur n blew by the strong wind. After that we to watch for another show after we found that the cinema was out of tickets n all time available was too late for us. Then, we decided to goes down to watch for the last cny show at the city square. It's great show. Besides that, i saw a person like 'him' really as same as him. I thought that the person was him with a girl. His appearance make me miss him a lot but after i saw his face i just realized that was not him. Haha. However, how also i would not fell for him again. What's a great trips for 2D1N.. Hope that I get my Mr. right soon but sometimes really very troublesome with the argument n this n that. It's really affect my feeling badly. I hate that. I just only want the happiness n no sadness, hoorrrraaaayyy..haha..

Off Rain

Your words of goodbye, I laugh and don’t mind and seemed happy

I look behind your path, don’t cry, I didn’t pray

I do not leave looking at your flowing tears

I do not send them

Dropping rain is quite alright, but your tears don’t seem alright

It’s alright but I can’t catch you leaving, erase all the memory of your sick mind

As time flows only you knew you’d forgotten, you lived, it seemed so, with no mind

Today, you look exactly like dropping rain from behind, walking alone

I’m going to try to catch her tears

But I do not deserve to laugh

Dropping rain is quite alright, but your tears don’t seem alright

It’s alright but I can’t catch you leaving, erase all the memory of your sick mind

Dropping rain

Please don’t go, please don’t leave

And tell your heart

Your heart cries as rain drops, your heart cries as tears drop

I love you, I can’t catch you leaving, and the clear gain of your life is the sorrow

I’m afraid it will rain

Like An Idiot

Like an idiot, why didn't I know?
Like an idiot, why did I let you go?
Like an idiot, my heart cries slowly
I know now
My love is only you

Even if my eyes look for you
Even if my heart pressures me
I didn't believe that it was love
I believed that I was lonely and had to lean on you

Like an idiot, why didn't I know?
Like an idiot, why did I let you go?
Like an idiot, my heart cries slowly
I know now
My love is only you

Let's not act like idiots
Let's not heart ache alone
When tears fell because of the pain
I'd become upset with my heart for being so weak

Like an idiot, why didn't I know?
Like an idiot, why did I let you go?
Like an idiot, my heart cries slowly
I know now

Do you know, that you are my love?
Do you know, that you fill my heart?
Like an idiot, I've just found out now
You, I call you

Because without you, I cannot live on